I feel odd posting here but I just don't know what to do or where to turn and feel safer posting here then just about anywhere else.

Life and money have been getting tighter and tighter and I been more and more anxious and stressed lately. Well the car went into the shop yesterday with what I thought was minor but looks more like major issues. Don't know right now if I can afford to fix it or if it's even worth fixing and can't afford replacing it either. I finally hit that rock bottom spot and just feel like anyone in my personal life is judging and criticizing. Emotionally I just don't know what to do or where to go.

Thank you for posting. You are not alone. I know you're not.

More people than it appears will have read this and relate. They may just not quite feel courageous enough to speak as you have or respond.

It's okay to be yourself here and it's a safe place to speak.

Hi Nova Gunger, what you said really hit home with me. Last year I was diagnosed with BPD and autism. Before that, I was a fuck up. So much promise coming out of school, but I self destructed all over the place, and constantly. The responsibilities of adult life were too much for me, for some reason, and I felt worthless. Just a lazy piece of shit. But now it turns out that my whole life, my brain actually was different. Every hypersensitivity I complained out, was bullied for, and learnt to compartmentalize in order to blend in, was real. It explained everything, my money issues, anxiety, depression, addictions. My love for messyness and being dominated. Whatever.
My point is, talk to a doctor about what's happening. It takes time, but you can get help. And people will recognise you for the real you, and not the you who's pretending to be like everyone else.
Hope this helps.
Sorry if I'm transferring.