Hello, You may have read the destructive path post that I worte a while ago. Well shit has really hit the fan since then.

That friend of mine, I figured out and it was revealed that she spent the time at a football tournoment that we partook in to bully, discriminate and slander not just me, but my fellow teammates. Teammates who are all disabled in some shape or form.

SInce then, I have confronted her about it and she basically told me that the public wouldn't believe a mentally unstable individual (she used the R word and I am not going to repeat it here). So I took to my blog and exposed her. The backlash was emence. A nuclear bomb had gone off.

However it was in the aftermath that I started getting stalked and harrassed online and in person.
The local PC plods were not interested in a hersay case. I tracked my attacker to my home town and they eventually revealed themselves to be a another friend of the one I exposed. The one I have been have trouble with.

Now the only answer I ever wanted, explanation was why? Why bully me and my teammates, why attack me? The latter I worked out easy enough. She thought that society wouldn't believe the ASD dude with mental health problems. Society did though.

It has however been recently where I have been blackmailed. The first attempt was unsuccesful. They threatend to out my crossdressing to the public. So I took my power back and came out as a crossdresser. Here in the nation's capital it doesn't bother anyone what you do.

The second attempt however, I called their bluff. Publicly apologise to my friend as well as hand over a large sum of cash for damages. Calling their bluff was a huge mistake on my part as they released the details of my foot fetish.

Foot fetishism is hardly a big thing. But when you are going for a job with a right wing journlism role (the money and job security was good). Them finding out has left me with no friends or allies who live on the right to far right of politics. Ultra religious friends and contacts as well have stopped taking my calls.

The thing about foot fetish. It's a lie. Now I do love seeing a beautfiul pair of heels on a woman, but more of appreciation of the beauty, I hold no desires to like, carress and jerk off to and/or on. No.

Each to their own, but no. Now I have written a blog about what happened. my latest one. My love for a particular pair of heels this friend wore. The full story of that is that at the time she had major body issues. Dressing up in a dress, heels, make up and hair she felt ugly, especially her feet. So I praised her beauty, including her feet. How the heels... anyway. The blackmailer used that story, just with the twist that I had been given a footjob by her and well you can guess where all that would lead to.

Even if we did do that we'd be consenting adults. The lie however has destroyed my professional reputation, damaged my personal one and since my mother is both a supporter of the far right and deeply religious it has casued her to state that I am a disapointment.

Am I paying for exposing my, now former friend? It is not like I tried diplomacy. several times I reached out, at one point I begged her to stop. However after learning that she didn't just bully and humiliate me, she did to my other disabled teammates. If it was just me, I can slowly forgive. Other people though, other people, most of whom are defenceless.

If you want to look at it that way, I guess? I'd say that you chose to fight, and instead of rolling over she continued fighting back. You can think of it as "paying for" that decision, but to me it makes more sense to look at it as "I joined a fight and the fight isn't over yet."

Now, you can choose to leave it alone (or, at least, leave her alone), and that'll be the end of that. Or, knowing what you know now about how persistent and vindictive she is, you can choose to keep going after her. Or you can try something else. But I don't think you need to look at this as some kind of, like, cosmic judgment or payback or anything like that.