I dont know if others on here have their own individual internal conflicts like this, sometime I feel like a real hypocrite, I like some things and not others, I don't like that I like particular things sometimes, sometimes I feel exited by something's and then think I should feel ashamed and disgusted at myself

I am torn between whether it is okay to indulge in fantasies in my mind and whether this is liberating or limiting.

I create Ai work to keep a kind of distance I tell myself though the work is inspired by real life, I think of myself as a viewer rather a participant, the hypocrisy I feel is because I sometimes like the idea of perhaps gunging pie'ing or messy someone but then wonder could I really do it in reality, also wanting to mess but not be messed.

I cant help wondering if this is some distorted perception that should be ignored or a part of me that should be embraced.

This is fascinating, and I would love to write a whole book-length post about just this one statement. But that probably wouldn't be helpful, soooooo:

Look, the vast majority of people are sexual hypocrites, if you want to look at it that way. For example, I think you'll find that it's pretty common for men to want to stick their dicks into women while, at the very same time, not wanting anyone to stick a dick into them. If that's a serious moral failing, then it's the kind of serious moral failing that, like, 99+% of humanity has in one form or another.

So I don't think it's a very serious problem--or really even a problem at all--that you want to mess someone else while you stay clean. That feels like it falls well within the limits of normal, regular, healthy sexuality.

As for the rest of it, every fantasy is both limiting and liberating. Every idea is that way, every desire is that way. You can't live every life at once, nor can you live in some kind of perfect middle ground where you can just sort of sit back and pretend that you're some kind of bloodless neutral observer. You are limited: you like some specific things and not others. You are also liberated: because you like specific things, you are free to have experiences that other people can't. In other words, you're a human person. If you can forgive yourself for that, surely you can forgive yourself for the rest of it

Thank you for your reply, I like this sort of insightful response, its ironic you mentioned a part that could be a book, because I want to write a book or two about the perspectives of various mental health struggles and identities, unfortunately I have the artists block and perfectionist mentality that keeps preventing me from starting.

Well, feel free to send me a message if you want. I'm like 95% of the way through my third novel, so I have a little bit of experience with writer's block and what that's like ^_^

I once read...
"A woman is a vessel that wants to be filled and a man is a vessel that wants to be emptied."

In WAM terms (although there are many differences), most posts here seem to confirm that we like seeing a women being the one being gunged or pied. (Is that a submissive and dominant thing?)

I think AI WAM has allowed many of us to develop scenarios that we would like to see.
There seems to be a fairly common AI thread of some form of authority being destroyed
OR perfection being 'sullied'.

I find myself going from being attracted by WAM to sometimes thinking 'what do i find good about this'. Sometimes it just seems silly. Other times i think this is just wrong.
Is this just a scenario for my imagination, or would i really enjoy messing someone up so much.
BUT soon i realise that i love seeing a woman lose her dignity and go from perfectly dressed to perfectly messed.

I know from the few times that i have poured custard or treacle over an attractive women, i have NOT enjoyed it as much as i do seeing photos, videos, stories and chat on here. So perhaps it proves that sex is mainly in the mind.

One of my personality traits is balance and something I have come to realise recently is that what I like is much more a thing of stimulation for the mind rather than physical arousal.

Also one of the constant things is contradiction, so you cannot have mess without clean or clean without mess, there cannot be one without the other.

The trial and error of AI images has become a sort of long inhibited expression and a mental health coping technique.