I am so fucking nervous because there is A LOT going down.
i went to pre op yesterday and whewwwww. yall. i will keep in touch with you all but its a LOT. i am very nervous. I lost three friends THIS YEAR, two in a month....all of them VERY CLOSE friends of mine and all of these deaths have ALL been sudden, unexpected and tragic as fuck.
One was just over a week ago was my next door neighbor and she had a knee replacement....totally normal.....and she comes home and dies. I have been not myself at all because of all of this....and now i am deathly afraid of surgery. i have never been so scared. plus, this one is very invasive, fucking tubing and shit afterwards....scopes all up in my abdomen and chest to get out mesh that broke apart in my body...its gnarly as hell. My doctor is well known and wonderful. (the NEW ONE) BUT the doc that did this to me is completely protected. I have had to pay out of pocket to fix his mistakes. It is sad, really.
MY POINT, I DO HAVE ONE!!
i will be bedridden for the first week, second week, moving around lightly and all up until week 5 when i should be able to resume activities we shall see how bad it is once i am opened up...if it COULD be any worse. dear god.
if you wanna send me goodies for when i start filming when im back up?? i have an amazon wish list which i will be adding to in the coming week as well. i REALLY need some new sneaks and big ass slouch socks! and other shit....i am running low bc i sold a lot of clothes to help pay for this surgery. i sold a lot of stuff.
if you get me stuff, i am always inclined to give something in return. Depening on what it is? a vaulted video? sex video? more than one? something unreleased? something already in my store you have had your eye on? we will work it out bc i am NOT very good at just getting gifts for no reason.
please send me some good vibes. i am nervous. downright fucking petrified to be honest. I will be on here after a couple of days ( i dont like to take pain meds more than a day or two....make me feel like shit) i will post pics and updates and whatnots as soon as i can move my arms appropriately. haha.
please send good vibes that this is my last one for a long time. this has been a whirlwind of a year....i want this to be, instead of a set back? a fresh start for some serious fucking amazing productions/ teaming up with some big name producers/continuing on the jayce lane show as you all have shown your great interest in it!!/ continuing to train to compete in 2020
i love you all and i am thinking positive as i can so please think positive for me and yeah, heres a link if you feel inclined to buy me some stuffs to lift my spirits! haha! packages are always fun! i wont have the arm strength to open them but ill have the little helper to do it for me and send you pics! thanks loves!
anyone with legal advice? feel free to email or message me. i have done all i can as far as i know.....but there may be other things i can do
I WILL ALSO BE SHOOTING THE BOYS AS SOON AS I CAN LIFT MY ARMS! FEEL FREE TO EMAIL ME NEXT WEEK TO BOOK DISCOUNTED DRENCHMEDUDES AND MESSY CUSTOMS WITH STEPHON, BRADLEY AND ROD!!
I am a long time admirer and think you are amazing. Everything will be fine and I wish you a speedy recovery and look forward to seeing you getting very messy soon.
I had sinus surgery a few years ago, and i started crying as the nurse came over with the anesthesiologist and they explained what would happen and the slim but possible chance of complications, etc. I was just like "if this is the last moment and you two are the last people i see...". They were kind enough, but it was just so lonely and stark.
All of which to say -- my heart goes out to you, i and i think many here know that feeling of apprehension, fear of the unknown and the possible, etc.
We love you, we appreciate you, we are rooting for you and praying for you.
Best of Luck Jayce! lots of love coming your way from accross the pond I'm sure Imagine how good your first session will be when you've recovered............ #massiveO
You're going to be fine, I know this, because I know you well enough by now to know this is just another pothole in the road of your life. I know you're scared, but you've been through worse. This too shall pass, and your friends and family will do everything they can to see you through it.
Sending you best wishes for successful surgery and a speedy recovery. My best friend just had a total hip replacement -- she was really miserable for the first two, post-op days -- but that was 99.9% because of the opioids she was taking. Within 12 hours of stopping them, she was recovering much better. I'm certain that a strong young woman like you will come through with flying colors.
You do know that worrying accomplishes nothing. It will not make the outcome better, or worse. So please, meditate, and talk yourself out of the worrying.
As long as you focus on recovery and not getting any of the cute female nurses to try WAM you should be fine. With so much going on with your health, I really want to get up there with you and Ariel to do a session in the next year or 2. It'll make me so upset if I never got the chance to do this. Hopefully you can sue the company that made the mesh.....
I hope things go well tomorrow. Was it the mesh manufacturer or the doctor? Can your current doctor recommend a course of action? Just because a doctor is "protected" doesn't mean you can't find a local ambulance chaser to go after him for malpractice. Save your bills and shit and when you are 100% go after the bastard. His mistake should not cost you money!!! Besides the doctor pays malpractice insurance, let them pay it out. Make sure you get all your pain and suffering in too. I am thinking in the 7 figure range.
Love you, too
we shall see how bad it is once i am opened up...if it COULD be any worse. dear god. 
Imagine how good your first session will be when you've recovered............ 
#massiveO
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