Sweetheart,

Your heart is so big, your flame so bright.

You are worth Waiting for--, and wait they will.

Be there for those you love, heal yourself, grief, become stronger!

Big love xx

We're with you Jayce. Sending hugs xx

ive been up since 5 with my sick dude and he is now fever down and playing the amazing frog so i got on here to see how dixie's vid is doing....see if people dig it adn im just at a loss for words. i am crying. you son of a bitches, you all made me cry.

i was able to share more openly here in this community than my own fb page, and not feel like i would be judged or people would be liek "whats wrong with her kid??" he is high functioning ausbergers RIIIIIIIIIGHT on the line of the spectrum. insanely intelligent. nine with an iq of 137 so, life has its challenges! lol. being insanely smart...you can certainly put one over on your mum! he is bright and wonderful and hilarious. ariel is close with him and she can tell you hes like no one you will ever meet. i am grateful for this. i am just hoping i can do a good job and help him all i can.

my friend jason's funeral is tuesday. funeral, burial and all and this will be a hard day. my friend here from the umd, his brothers service is saturday. he lives in good ol canada so i wont be making that one but his family and friends will all be on my heart. i am just overwhelmed at the love you all have put out on here. makes me feel like an asshole when i dont get to comment on your stuff more often! and i am replying to people on mine. fuck. puts things in perspective, huh? anyway, im crying, a bunch of tears bc you all are truly moving. what a bunch of loving and supportive, awesome people thank you. thank you. its easier for me to keep in touch this way bc i can talk to everyone and not just one person...which makes things more personal for me and is a lot harder to do. but i am still trying, either way. thank you all. gosh damn. i had no idea the love that would come. i figured people would read this and get no reply, which was fine...and drop....jeez. you all make this place a COMMUNITY OF LOVE. and idk if messmaster has seen this but he should be proud of the place he has made with so much fucking love. god, its really good!

mucho mucho looove and peace and all of that. to you all as well.....
jayce

I'm am SOOO very sorry to hear what you are going through right now. My prayers are with your son and my thoughts will be with you as you deal with your personal life. You can take all the time you need, and deserve. You have been there for us and now it's our turn to be there for you. If you need to talk to someone I'm more than happy to listen. WE LOVE YOU JAYCE!!!!!

daw, man... i'm sorry for your loss, Jayce...You have all my sympathies...

This thread is both cool and shitty. Shitty that you would have to explain things because people have no patients and are too demanding. But cool because of the outpouring of love and support. Raising a kid with special needs no matter what they are is tough.

I have been told many times that I do not process death like others. I do not mourn people when they die. I celebrate it and have fun. They have moved on to their next phase in their eternal progression. However it happened it was their time to progress further on. Be it by choice or by force it would have happened any ways. So celebrate the fact that they have moved on. They are no longer bound by the shit this world throws at people. They are traveling onward.

All these things all at once......... ............my love and prayers for you and everybody else connected with those who have passed away, and all the very best for the funeral tomorrow. Your son being diagnosed with Asperger's, speak with those in this thread who offered to answer questions. Not knowing very much about Asperger's, I sense it is an explanatory label for a particular person's personality/behaviour and nothing has changed in your son, he is still the same before and after. I know one or two people with Asperger's or have children diagnosed. Some people say the famous classical composer Mozart had it and look at the musical legacy he left behind, his focus on music enhanced by how he was.......please ignore this if this sounds like nonsense from somebody with little knowledge........I hope your son gets over his fever quickly, though.

I think this may have been more for the benefit of some of those people. Before she posted this, how many here knew about some of these things that have been going on for years now. And it makes sense, this is her business. So she puts on her smile, and acts like nothing is wrong for the sake of bringing home that pay check.

It reminds me of that old gem of a thread "WAM models don't have families" or something to that effect. On a forum (especially one where you never hear a word from said models) it's easy to think that. This is precisely why I love this place so much, it's more than a forum or a store for many of us. It's becoming a community, WAMily even.

Dal, I understand you on that death front though. I don't want a funeral, I want a wake. I don't want people to cry tears of sorrow for me, but rather tears of laughter at the memories of asinine things we've done in life. When I die, my pain will be gone and my suffering over.

I hope that the outpouring here can also help show other people that we're all human on the other end of the screen. That there are people out there that care, even some that you've never met face to face.

I couldn't have said that any better myself.

The online world really feels like just an extension of ourselves sometimes and it can certainly feel lacking in sincerity and overly superficial here and there. With the exception of the occasional anniversary party in Vegas here and fan meetups there, the vast majority of us never physically meet each other in the physical world outside of the UMD community. It just makes it all the more powerful when people show their true selves in their humanity by supporting others during challenging times.

So hang in there Jayce. Take the time you need to be the parent and supporter you need to be. We're all thinking of you.

Thinking about ya dear...sending positive vibes your way.

This. 100%. I have no knowledge of any other fetish forums, but I'd be surprised if they're like this one when something like this happens. I think we can all be proud of this community.

By the way, interesting you said "WAMily", because Jilly used to use that expression too.

You're a good momma and a good friend. These things I know are true.

Iam sorry for what you are going through right now.And understand

What Rich said. Your life comes first and anyone who'd take issue with that isn't worth associating with in the first place.

well im crying some more. this has become more of a thread showing how friggin supportive this community is.

we, as a community, have had some rough patches as well. i think that this, is showing how we as fans of messy, sexy, fucking all around fun.....can also be human as fuck....and come together even after some shitty stuff. its a beautiful thing.

i drove today to watch one of the best friends ive had in my life be buried. I cant say it was awesome. i sat with his mother and surrounded by his children and their mothers. It was untimely and extremely hard. I drove home a little bit ago and just had to lay down. too many tears can make you tired, you know? but i slept. which was good. My heart hurts for me but so much more for his mother, who watched her 35 year old son be buried today, for his children, for all of us who knew such an awesome human being and knew that we wouldnt be seeing him again. I did catch myself laughing with old friends , though. About good times, funny times, music and just HIM. that was nice to have.

i cant thank you all enough. i really cant. My son is doing well. lots of appointments and appointments and appointments to GET appointments. lol. but i grateful for a diagnosis that is on target bc we have been so lost for years and he has been misdiagnosed or not diagnosed at all, and it has been difficult. now, its onto phase 2, where we learn the best foods, the best ways to deal with his feelings and emotions so he CAN be okay. he is very high functioning and his iq is insane. i feel like a dumbass around him. lol anyway....potato man (ill call you that here) thank you for bringing that to light...that it has been a fucking whirlwind of SHIT for a while and sometimes you just have to say "HEY YALL, IM HERE BUT GOT DAMN JUST GIMME A MINUTE! I LOVE YA! I JUST NEED A MINUTE!" and i thank you so much for being and ear.

thanks guys. today was rough, real rough. but everyday will get better and everyday i will get stronger.
i just send all my heart pieces to those families today, those children...who lost their dad so tragically. my heart aches so much.

but we all have our shit and anyone reading this...if you have a whirlwind of shit going on...you have all the love in the world from me. all the good vibes i can muster, all the thoughts and prayers i can send. you have them all. again and again. thank you all.

you all have truly shown what a community and a WAMily is all about.
mucho love

Sending mucky hugs your way.