Sssssoooo...

Between looking for a good job and... looking for a good job... I have been gone.

Now I'm back, and... boy this is depressing.

I kept looking through online stuff whenever i needed to "scratch my itch," though I always still imagined wam when I... you know.

So, one video led to another and so on and so forth. Before I knew it, I was back... kinda...

Now, I was never a social butterfly... anywhere... and on here was no exception.
Sadly, that was part of my reason for beig gone for so long; I wasn't going to be missed.

So, you'd think that certain people not being here wouldn't effect me so much.

...seeing so many old stars either retired or gone for such long periods without posting is incredibly sad.
Obviously, people need to do what they have to in life and like I did need to go away for awhile if not forever... but... i guess this place just always felt like a constant non-variable: it would always be about the same. So there was no need to really check.

So, now I'm just kind of sitting here typing... unsure of what to do at all.

UMD... not the same
WamStory... not the same
Life... not the same

Look, you guys can pick on me for being naive and all that thinking of me being desperate for attention and all that crap. I don't really care anymore despite tryig to be "one of the guys/gals" on here in the community for so long.

I guess, all I can ask is... What happened?

Maybe then I will have some closure?

All I know is life has gotten worse and worse and not I've just found out that EVEN MY FETISH Community world has deteriorated over time.

...not sure how often I'll check this. Might be five seconds from now... might be 5 months... I'm just not sure what to do anymore.

Anyway, go ahead. Heckle and criticize away those of you who are into that.
We all know you're there waiting to unwelcome me back, so just get the insults over with so i can sort through them for any useful information, or if I am ungodly lucky words of encouragement on how I am suppose to go through things when even this, a place in cyberspace meant for people like me, is also being changed to be worse and worse due to the horrible condition that is life.

Anyone in particular you're missing? I'd say the scene has gone from strength to strength, everyone shoots in HD, loads of new material being released, and other than the unfortunate loss of Bill Shipton most of the main producers of recent years are still here I think?

Hi hon good to see you back

One thing though, I know of two people missing who I think you might be referring to and they very possibly don't want the reasons dredging up again so i wouldn't push too hard for 'why'

Communities flow and change over time and I don't think anything has deteriorated, it's just different. Stick around and get to know new awesome people who have arrived. there's been a good influx of excellent new female wammers recently, many have posted pics and had wammer of the day

You thought it was awesome before because it was new, you took time to find your feet and get to know the site. All you need to do is that again x

Yeah, i follow what you both are saying.
Sorry if I'm being a buzzkill.
It just seems like I'm loosing things in life left and right, and even though I haven't been following UMD closely lately, just the fact that it too has becom so different in the people I am referring to having left/become inactive makes everything in my life personally right now feel even more like a big mess

...and not the fun kind.

This is kinda just what happens as time marches on.

Jayce retired, but other than that, everything else is the same. Rich pieing hot girls, AntDx316 being a creep, and another fiverr girl tried making pie clips but got her account closed down.

You miss Marty Penn and Lovingway?!

Zoidberg stop copying me, only I am allowed the use of the meme!!!

P.S. here are some welcome back photos!!

Remember the days when the only male genitalia on this site was Chainsaw John's selfie penis pic??

In order of how much I miss them: CSJ, Lovingway, CSJ's penis pic showing up in every third post, and Marty Penn.

As usual, Jinxguy is wrong. Ariel has taken a break, Jilly is AWOL, Messy Jessie is recovering from some illness, piegirlkay retired due to her husband's sickness and Mrs. Bee is gone, but she at least posts some wonderful new material.

Arguably 6 of the top 8 models of the last 10 years stepped away in the last 12 months. Yeah, I'd say that's a huge change over on the UMD.

Ariel has said that she will be back, just is dealing with some personal things right now. This isn't the first time she has stepped away for a while. Jilly is also dealing with a health issue, but has said on Twitter that she plans on coming back.

So neither one of them is gone, but are just taking breaks. I'm certain that Ariel will be back. I'm less certain of Jilly, but still confident that she will be (and hopefully will release that paint set that she previewed here months ago).

Yeah but...

Ariels break is temporary, so is Jessies (hopefully) Mrs bee still posts and there's new folk like mypierogative, kacie james, messy minxy, messy miss marie, boychucker, indykinkcouple, and infi (and more!) have all joined, joined in, posted pics etc and been a brilliant addition to the site

I know Candy said "and more" but gonna give Stella, Mandar and Trouso/Ginger a shout out for awesome content!

Absolutely! (sorry I knew I'd miss someone or several as it turns out!)

oh and another - Sophie Smith

Haha, think I had blocked this out of my memory... it's all come flooding back now.

What ever became of Lovingway I wonder. Used to get daily abuse from him in his yahoo group when I was running wammonkey.