That's a really interesting question, Jayce. I don't have a very strong internal validator, so I rely pretty much completely external validation. I've had people in my life who tell me I'm sexy covered in mess, and in my best moments, I can believe that about myself.
Nearly answered with a one-word 'yes', but now pondering. I think the answer is that I'm less self conscious if I'm covered in goo. Definitely feel more able to express sensuality. Whilst of course at the same time, having my ears on high alert for unsuspecting members of the public who may unwittingly stumble across my little sessions!
Jayce said: Well, let me first start off by admitting that yes, I have severe body dysmorphia. Severe. I know you cant tell it in my videos but that is for a reason. I am medicated for it...I do therapy...I have been doing different things with my body that I am not happy with...but? Its to try to defeat the problem. Find the root cause.
Seriously: Have you ever tried to have sessions with a certified sexological bodyworker close to you - or even online? They are trained to support you to navigate with body dysmorphia. https://sexologicalbodyworkers.org/
(and I love myself also very much, when I am completely naked and covered in stuff. )
Love you, too
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