Does someone else here feels bad for to be like this ? Have some time i'm looking for someone in real life to share this messy thing and learn to accept myself, but i just get sad and painful situations and memories. I would like to be different. Anyone here feels like this ? Sorry for dont be a positive post.
A lot of people can build an identity out of their sexuality. But the pie-in-the-face is anti-identity, anti-narcissistic. You can't build an identity on it. So if you want to accept yourself, you have to start with some other part of your life, and honor the kink as a sort of fun side-project.
It took me years to be able to come out about my kink to friends, even now I still feel a twinge of shame when I tell new people. BDSM is so commonplace and accepted that it's not even blinked at, but very few other kinks enjoy the same freedom and are often shamed. Happiness comes from accepting who you are and that you are right for you, not in thinking how other people judge you. Good luck.
En mi caso fue dificil mi vida wam, siendo mujer creci sin decirle a nadie cuanto me gustaba ponerme una bikini y revolcarme en el barro, ya de mayor empece a contarlo a mis novios u de a poco fui gozando de este fetiche que me excita y me divierte