okay, so pandemic makes things hard to film. it just does. traveling back and forth....school not in session....its difficult as it IS.
so, right now, i have 4 customs in front of me that take me or ariel traveling to do them. I have a terrible kidney infection and my face is swollen up on both sides and they do not know why. please note: i am not taking any customs until these are done.
this is how i do things. I will not bite off more than I can chew and not having things to my customers really, really makes me a nervous wreck. please bear with me as I am doing as my doctors ordered. resting and healing so that i dont keep having kidney issues back to back....which has been the case. I have not given myself a chance to heal. I feel a tiny bit better and I go back into training and filming and traveling back and forth. I will commence all stuff next weekend. thank you for your understanding and have the best valentines day ever! as SOON as these are finished? I will post that i am taking them again bc i have THREE models coming in AND ariel as well...actually FOUR. i believe jenna is coming back as well. so, if i do not answer your emails regarding a custom? I am simply trying to get back to myself. trying to eat, drink water and get completely healthy before continuing. so next weekened? bring it on! I am excited to be messy again!!! love you all

Kidney infection?!?

Have you been to the doctor?

She has had recurring kidney issues for years now. Docs are aware of it, and I don't think this is anything new or to be worried about.

Take good care of yourself

You left heath comes first than everything else follows

Keep yourself for yourself till you choose to share any other aspect of yourself

thank you for letting them know. I have chronic issues, yes. its quite annoying! blerg. thank you all for being cool

Love you chica, holler if you need anything.

thank bee beee. i have been learning the art form of "do what the fuckign doctor says" and it is daunting and very annoying. i know people work while they are sick. i do not feel like its in my customers best interest for me to be in pain and attempting to have fun during their custom. they paid to watch me do what i love to do....and i only want to give them the best of the best for their money. i guess this message is for you 4 people. i am not taking anything else until yours are done. it aches me that i am down but alas. i shall be up soon and feeling good adn it will shine through during my messy time i am so grateful you all have chosen ME to do!!

Keep taking time for you!! Take it easy and relax. I know having health issues and trying to work that is hard to do. I am extremely guilty of not following my own advice and I pay for it dearly every time I don't. There is not anything that cannot wait until you are 100%. It is better for things to take time and for people to be understanding than to have to make an announcement that you are forced because of your health to stop and retire. Your health is nothing to fuck around with.

Jayce dear : BarryM . Just read about your recurring kidney issues...I'm VERY disturbed by it... did the MDs tell you what's the underlying cause of these recurring kidney infections ? If you keep having them , the kidney will weaken and be, God forbid , prone to failure. Is it both your kidneys or just one ? If it's both then there has to be something you're consuming which isn't agreeing with your kidneys whence nephritis. Excessive urinating can " exhaust " the kidneys , but you're having
infection

yes .i know what caused them and what caused them to become worse. I have had courses of dialysis to try and "cleanse" them....and they still have not been regenerating like they should.

when i was 6 months pregnant i DID go into renal failure. it was a very hard time. i had to make a decision to save my life or my sons. of course, i chose him. i had to choose alone...and on a shitload of painkillers but i made it through with a team of docs and nurses he was born healthy.

ever since then, that was 11 years ago, the kidneys have slowly gotten worse....and now, get worse more progressively. after days of shooting i usually get sick for a few days....i have to take antibiotics and whatnot all the time and i have surgery on the 18th to help with some factors to help them. sooooooo, just for all you all that were waiting on customs (there were only 3 of yas, i didnt take anymore)

they are done i am editing all day tomorrow.

the other wetlook customs that have to be shot in the hotel we have to book will be done asap! we have to book the place when the hot tub rooms are open and on weekdays so the pool is free

thanks for everyone checking on me and thank you for my customers keeping in touch with me like i asked you all to! keep checking in with me! and ill keep letting you know the last 2 wetlook customs and when they will be done!

i appreciate you all.
have a great week!

Get Well Soon!

thank you all stuff will be done by the 18th bc after then, i wont be able to shoot for a few weeks or so....

during those weeks i may take customs with alice and ariel to shoot if i am feeling okay after the first week after surgery. thank you

i only have two wetlook customs left and you know who you are we are talking to the hotel as we speak to see what days the pool will be open and available to us. if someone with covid or has been around covid gets in there? they have to do all these chemical treatments and overflow it with chlorine and shock for a few days. same with the rooms. they have to clean and treat the rooms. any one of you two can email me anytime! thanks!!!

Take care of your body now, and you'll be back in perfect shape to do a great job!

Wow, thank you for being so open about your life, we're all here to support you in any way we can. Your dedication and loyalty to your fans is heartwarming and inspiring. I hope you're already feeling better. Much love and respect to you.

Your health matters more than anything.
So, take time out.
Forget about the customs.
Take as long as you need, to get well.

The wait will do the rest of us good.
We will appreciate you more, later.

Only when you are well.
Peter