I don't know why I always have to feel everything as extremes. Its always been hard to deal with and I have built up a lot of hurt for a 19 year old. I don't know why I cant let anything go or learn to move on.
I lost my cat about a week ago to Leukemia.. I cant remember a time when I felt so lost. I should have been okay, we knew it was coming.. but why do I feel so empty without her. Why do I feel so empty regardless. I cant comprehend any of my emotions which leads me to utter frustration at times.
All I know is that it is hard to see the light..
I haven't recorded since I lost her.. So if you have a custom video you have ordered or you have contacted me and I haven't replied, this is why. I am a complete mess and sometimes typing a message takes a lot from me. I will try to get back in my groove, it's just been a struggle.