So after various days being banned from climaxing, a suggested challenge for me was slightly rejigged.

Going out shopping for supplies for planned big self-applied mess session over video call. Custard in underwear was the original suggestion - but after I raised issue of causing pH issues with extended wear time, I had found a pH balanced electroconductive gel.

"So I've kept thinking about what you'd said a while back about going shopping secretly messy. I thought id just use waaay to much gel, and the newer underpants made for periods, should probably contain leaks though i don't know if they do that outside of the collection zone. I thought about doing that today to go buy suspenders since i cant find mine and got tired of looking. Even put on the tight shiny type period pants in prep. But i cant seem to find a good excuse to go do that which wont have people volunteering to come with me. But i have an appointment with accountant Monday at 10am, very close to that shopping centre. So i guess the input I'm after is mess added before accountant or after?"

I was told both before and more added after.....

So I asked if I was allowed a trial run at home when alone.

I was a bit surprised when that was approved as the play conditions had been a bit less generous in the past. But his reasoning was that I would then just be doing it twice and it was no guarantee leaks would happen on the real run.


So I made some videos during the trial run - mostly just my face to document the experience.
https://umd.net/videos/videos-for-blog-entry-apr-2023--discrete
(may take time to be approved)

I did not add very much for the trial but it was still enough to notice, like really notice it.

The first cold contact I had expected to be the biggest impact. It wasn't. Moving made everything squish in and about, just making me even more acutely aware of the presence of the gel pressed into me.

I did start to get used to it after a while - but then as it lost moisture it became a more firm texture and with just the right hip wiggle it felt much like a slimy something gentle sucking on my clit.

I started to consider that effect if prolonged and realised leaking wasn't my main concern, but public orgasm may well be.

Leaving the gel in place I went about doing some more prepping and experiments for the upcoming big session. By the time I'd finished the prepping the gel was pretty much unnoticeable. Most had been absorbed by the pants and the rest had set like jelly to my pubes.

I used the hose attachment in the bath to get clean. That hose at medium pressure onto sensitive bits is my generally preferred method of getting off. But I managed to stick to my climax denial running challenge at that time. I knew that the punishment for breaking it was likely to be the Bowl of Misery which I narrowly dodged the evening before.

The day before the real challenge run, I was incredibly nervous and convinced I'd be so stressed the morning of that I'd probably vomit. I shared this feeling as was told if it was too much stress, not to do it as it's meant to be a bit of fun.

It was a sweet sentiment, but I think what I was seeking was some positive reinforcement.

I chatted with some other people I have met amongst the messy folks, and also my best friend and I was emotionally prepped to attempt it. Though one of the people I chatted to was hoping it did make me orgasm in public.

I could not find a suitable place i felt confident to add the gel to my underwear discretely in my parked car. I ended up parking up the far end of a shopping centre car park, which seemed to be incredibly busy. After some deliberation and chatting with people for support I opted to go into the bathroom of the shopping centre and do it there.

The bathroom was incredibly busy also. I'd hoped to at least have a quiet bathroom, but no. Much talking, noises and an air hand dryer that sounded like a jet engine. I did take a video of my reaction inside the cubicle as I pulled on my freshly gelled pants.

I did add a little more than the trial but not that much, and I wasn't game to squish it in from the outside too much either. But i had started now, and I deliberately brought no other clothing to stop myself from backing out.

Walk out through centre and back to the far end of the carpark was interesting. I felt incredibly self conscious though I knew no one but me could know. I tried not to walk awkwardly but sometimes it was difficult as proper walking movements did make the gel feel highly mobile.

I made a reaction video of me sitting down into my car as well.

Driving was fine, my car is auto so it's not that active leg movements. Walking to and sitting down through my morning appointment was very nerve-wracking at first - but by the time the roughly hour long appointment was up I didn't really notice much going back to my car at all.

I parked in the big shopping centre multi-story car park. I went to the nearest entry I knew that had toilets just inside the door - it was top up time.

I was more game with the amount I added at the top up. First thing to get was a suspender belt - as proper lingerie was the request for cam session. I went to so many places, almost no where had any and most only had the strap around the leg rather than proper clip type ones. So much squishy walking. But oddly I found my typical social anxiety was down, usually I am stressed out being in crowds of people, but with my somewhat aroused and distracted state I didn't car about other people around me.

The feeling of utter disgust was there for most every step I took. However, as I got horny enough I no longer cared that it was so unpleasant. I was still not game to sit though, I decided not to sit until I am back int he car as I definitely had some side leak going as the gel was such a thick layer the underwear elastic could no longer sit flush against my thigh crease.

I saw a sign in the shopping centre, where the hair supply store used to be. I wanted some clips for the curlers I decided to put in my hair to try and look as done up as possible. I felt called out by the sign but still walked all the way t the other end of the centre to go to a different shop that sold the clips I wanted.

I went to the supermarket to buy a bunch of thickened cream and custard to prepare the requested pies for the following days.

So i tried to edge whilst hose cleaning when home after lying in it a bit wiggling about. Yeh well horny me is like fuck his consequences bring it on mofo and then went through the potentials. Which really made it urmm... go well or bad depending on you point of view. So my clean up with the hose in the bathtub this time, I did not stop at the edge, not any of the first 4 times anyways. I did stop partway after that to leave it on a highnote. I also noticed once i got up and looked in mirror in bathroom, my previous face expression had returned to. Even without makeup and including aging.