Hey everyone,
I'm James, a 36yo (37 in August) WAMmer with a special spot for really messy graphic tees, sadly, I haven't always been this open about WAM.
I first got into what I now know as WAM around the age of 11/12 with a white ninja turtles tee I had then (man, I'll really have to 'grand trash' another nice white ninja turtles tee again, maybe in some epic WAM video?). To start with, the thought of making it wet got me exited, then actually wetting it, until I went to a friends house and fell over in the mud in it. At this point, I should have been , like most kids probably would after trashing their favourite t-shirt, instead, I felt strangely good about it.
However, I knew, even then, that this wasn't normal, at first, I thought it was just a phase, and it'd pass, but, it didn't. After a few years of hoping my fetish would disappear without result, I turned to smoking weed to cope with feeling different. That seemed to work up untill my early 20's when many of my mates then had partners etc, and I still had never had any of those things.
Desperate to 'cure' myself I turned to "medication" which seemed to totally kill my need to WAM. So desperate was I to "cure myself" of this curse on me that I ignored all other advice, got hooked on "medication" almost instantly, and spent the next 5/6yrs not caring if I killed myself, nearly did there, got to rehab at 38kgs (I'd be 80/90kgs now). Even after leaving rehab, I still believed that I was the only one in the world like this, hence my reference to the curse.
Anyhow, I continued to live in isolation with this curse after rehab up until I decided one evening to do something I'd never dreamt of before, I googled muddy white tees. I initially thought google wouldn't be able to match the search, but it did, loads of videos and pictures, mainly on YouTube. There I saw some life saving videos from Lad North, Dutch WAM Lad and young Jace. From their YouTube channels, I found references to UMD and UMD stores
From there, I found this community, I can't express in words how epic finding UMD has been for me. I no longer wait for death, nor contimplate self harm etc, hard to believe a website could have that effect on a person hey, but it sure did.
I guess I'm typing this for anyone reading whom has come from a similar background, or for anyone who's started chatting to a new arrival to UMD. As you can now see, some new arrivals to a site like this come here extremely vonarable , and in some cases sadly broken. Every time I see a new profile here, I ensure I give as much support as I can, by liking all of their content, simply as a token of appreciation for sharing and ensuring if I leave a comment, that it's supportive too.
Please feel free to message me with anything, whilst my story's sad, (cryer myself typing it) I'm on UMD for fun, especially fun with white tees from my clean album.
Keep well!
Kind regards, James