little life update I wanted to share with the community:
Making videos and jumping into this fetish has changed my life for the better in the most amazing, positive ways and I wanted to share some ways I've grown within the last year to hopefully inspire others <3. Feel free to reach out to me at any time or let me know if you can relate to any of this! I am really interested in learning more about others, growing, and realizing more things.The main thing that it caused within me is realizations and a new found confidence.
First off, in sex. Just one year ago, I would almost be literally shaking if I was about to try to disclose any of my fetishes to anyone and if it did get to that my nerves in the bedroom would affect me so much that I would fizzle any pleasure out for myself. Now, I understand how confidence in being open and honest about these things is extremely important in sex and life. The change has helped me so much. I've learned a lot more about new fetishes and new things and roles that I am into This past year has honestly felt a little like I lost my virginity all over again, *so* empowering.
On top of that, this confidence has bled into other areas in my life which I find so amazing! I have dismissed fears and coping mechanisms that used to serve me in the past. I used to be literally afraid of men (straight men especially) in all aspects. I would close up, get anxiety, and actually be afraid to speak to men. I was only friends with women and held them close to me when men were around. Fast forward -- I can talk to straight men now, i've even TRASHED AND FILMED different fetish content with a handful! I have close friends who are straight males who I can tell everything and anything about myself to.
I have eliminated toxic relationships that were holding me back and not serving me. Friendships that I realized might be using me or taking advantage of my sweetness or generosity. I no longer tolerate things that used to within friendships. I stand up for myself more than I ever have before.
Body image. In 2020, I was diagnosed with body dysmorphia and I am happy to report that my confidence boost from this journey has spread into this area heavily as well. I still struggle sometimes, but I finally feel comfortable and confident in my own skin sometimes. I can look at myself in the mirror without putting myself down or feeling disgusting. I am eating a more normal, consistent way. I am feeling so healthy and my daily energy levels have become more consistent as well.
Lastly, my new found confidence has helped my professional growth too. I am looking to relocate next month and I am using the confidence through the interview process at opportunities that would provide me the best possible growth. It's going well, and I am getting some amazing feedback and have a third interview a job that I am literally so under qualified for.
This community has been so kind and has only helped me more. I appreciate everyone who has supported me so far and I am excited to continue to release my work! I love you all!
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