Having a bit of a hard time lately and usually I like to try crossdress then from there either do a session, or just chill and enjoy being a female for a period of time.

In current circumstances I can't and a friend has a studio she uses and knows I crossdress and like to pose and just be free as it were. She is not aware I do WAM but I doubt she'd want me covered in stuff in the studio.

I do however want to dress up for her and do shoots, but my concern just now is I feel I'm having a crisis of confidence to dress up despite the desire to as feel I need a release of negative energy and feel like getting dressed up is a starting point.

So my questions to you are.

Do I dress up?
Do I bring up the WAM element or just do photos?
If I get some private time to myself to dress up should I get messy?
Anything else I should consider?

Any thoughts be appreciated as just been sort of struggling lately.

How much of a close friend is your friend with the studio?
It sounds like (above your other needs) you really need someone to talk to, and have an open, deep, and honest conversation about your needs (emotional/physical), confidence, and the hard time/negative energy you're having to deal with.

Whether she's the right person to talk with or not; I'd advice against using her studio for this until you've figured yourself out, as carrying on with all this inside you could lead to you hurting more or damaging your existing friendships.

[or I'm just reading into this way to much, in which case this post is likely a subconscious reflection of my own state of mind]