Hi you beautiful weirdos,

I've been posting wam photos and videos for a few years now, and I know that it's been a fetish of mine since... as long as I can remember. I don't want to post anything in violation of the terms, but I think that the attraction towards wam often develops pretty early on, even if we aren't aware that it's a thing.

I myself didn't realise that it was a thing until, in common with a lot of guys my age, I was on the internet in its early years of availability, when in my mid-20s I discovered the pictures and videos of the legendary Clown Julie.

On seeing Clown Julie get engulfed with gallons of shaving foam and foam pies, and occasionally get stripped at least partly nude, my reaction was not 'Wow, I want to find some woman who will let me do that to her', but 'I want someone to do that to me'.

And this has been my reaction to wam since then. I only figured out later on, in my 40s, that I'm bisexual, but on viewing all those old Pievids and Slapstick Stuff and Messygirl videos back in the day, it was never, for me, a fantasy about being the calm, cool, clean man gunging a docile female target. It was about projecting myself into being the person being gunged, who was almost always a woman, and wanting to be in her place. I wanted some guy (or indeed some woman) to do that to me. And Messygirl has gone on doing it, and Slapstick Stuff has, I now see, finally capitulated and does nudity (which is not in my view a bad thing, seeing as I'm naked in all my videos.)

But this is why I post the stuff that I post now: the photos and videos that I would have liked to see when I was younger, of a guy being gunged and pied, and reacting the way I would like to see a guy react.

And I have various psychological theories about why I like doing this. But I'm wondering: why do we all like to see people getting trashed like this? I'm not suggesting we shouldn't, just on an anthropological level: what's going on when we get aroused by the sight of someone being pied repeatedly?

Anyone got any ideas? More than just 'It's hot' or whatever?

I'd be curious to hear your thoughts.