Hi! This is my first blog post and I'm really just here to say how much I love that this community exists.

I've loved messy things for a long time now and I've only had the opportunity to partake a few times. This side of my life is definitely more real me to when I partake or engage with others who feel the same way.

Although it is a fetish, I don't see it as an extension of my sex life. Sex for me happens without a thought to wam. I'm a little more than vanilla, but I wouldn't say I'm a freak.

WAM is something different. It's more an expression of something in me that can be sexual. I love the play, the sensation, and the point of no return.

Sometimes it's hard to find those that engage the same way. I've had great roleplays, meaningful conversations, and even meets that have taught me a lot. Only a few times in those have I felt in sync with other individuals.

My real life outside of this I've told a few about this hidden identity. I'm very social and have a strong identity that has nothing to do with wam. I like to preserve that, so I'm very particular with who I tell, even the lovers I've had in my life. Even the few I've told, I've only engaged once- and honestly that was incredibly affirming and made that "hidden" side of me feel more real and apart of who I am.

That brings me to umd. I love it here- seeing how everyone expresses, messes, and talks to eachother. It's a true online community of the wammers all leaving their real lives to bring some life to each others hidden sides.

I hope to chat with more people and find alignment in whatever way that looks like. Until then- hope I get more messy times in and fun conversations. See you all out there <3