I just need somewhere to get this off my chest. If you don't like what I have to say, or you feel it's not relevant, I'll delete it.

I've been feeling like shit lately; I'm not one to ask for pity, but things have been rough for me. Shit just keeps piling up, and it's having an affect on my physical and mental health.

Shitty thing one: Medication
I've been on antidepressants since I was 12. It's just something that's been ingrained into me. I recently decided enough was enough and went cold turkey. It's been brutal, but this is something I've wanted to do for a while. I haven't had any serious thoughts of suicide or depression since I was 16, yet I've been wasting money on pills for two years. Withdrawal is an absolute bitch, I've been feeling ill for a while, and it's only just starting to ease up.

Shitty thing two: love
In the course of a month I lost 2 partners, and basically all of my sexual appetite. My breakup with my bf was smooth, and we're still friends, but my girlfriend was a fucking disaster. This girl I've had a crush on since the start of uni fucking hates me now.

Shitty thing three: death and taxed
I love my family to death, but I've always felt closest to my aunt out of everyone. Recently this goddess of a woman was diagnosed with cancer. She has great odds of survival, but it's still killing me inside.

I've been inactive on the site for a while, and I'll probably take a break immediately after writing this. I just wanted to vent here, not for any good reason, but maybe it'll help.

Jenny