Not really, but it seemed a good idea to post about how I got here.

So like many of you, my first experiences with WAM were on television. YCDTOTV and Nickelodeon etc for many of us in the USA anyways. I was a kid at the time, I didn't understand jack about why I was drawn to it, I just was. For the next few years I remember doing anything I could just to jump in a pool with my shirt on, or make a mess when I was eating. Anytime I did do this though I was chastised pretty harshly by the rents.

Fast forward to my teen years and my first positive experience was oddly enough on a church youth group trip. We were doing a day camp for younger kids and afterwards we decided we were hot, sweaty, and wanted to cool off. We popped over to a near by lake but no one had swimsuits with them. It was a mixed group of us 20 or so guys and girls. Something about 10 or so teenage girls frolicing fully clothed in the lake and I was beet red. My heart was pounding and I didn't really know why. I mean their swimsuits left less to the imagination than shirts and shorts, but there I was almost paralyzed. I was finally coerced into going in myself by some of the girls and had the time of my life.

For the next couple years I tried as hard to hide the fact that I loved this, especially since I was hanging around a church youth group and well anything to do with sex was 'sin' because I wasn't married. I spent the next few years feeling like I was a deviant, a pervert. Feelings that still sometimes well up in me and complicate even casual relationships I have with women to this day.

It wasn't until I got a computer with good ol 56k dialup that I discovered the world of WAM on the interwebs. WAMTEC, Messy Fun, and Wambabes were among the first things I found. I was particularly taken aback by Ariel's Wambabes because we were close in age. This wasn't a model like on the other sites that was just doing a paid gig. This was a girl that was into the same dirty shit that I was! Needless to say, I was smitten. Finally I knew there were other people like me. I still felt like a deviant, a pervert, but that I wasn't alone at least. There was this gorgeous 19 year old girl out there doing this for fun, and making a bit on the side from it!

I still kept things on the down low for a long time because my health issues then started and all my plans to get out of my parents house came crashing down around me. All my money saved working evaporated into medical bills. Aside from the occasional times my parents went away I didn't get much WAM time in, and I felt dirty and awful each time I did it.

It wasn't until I was 24 and married that I got to have my first real messy experience with my wife, who was hesitant but went along with it. It was an incredible release for me, euphoria like I never experienced before, but I could tell that they were not into it. No, they pretty much hated it. But they saw what it did for me and went along with it at least 2 more times.

10 more years later, and here we are at the end of 2016. A LOT has happened since, I'm 34, a trainwreck of medical problems, and getting divorced. It sounds kinda awful, but its not really. Its a new beginning. The divorce isn't an ugly thing, and we're still great friends. Now we're each free to pursue our own dreams. Age is just a number, 34 isn't so bad, at least if I can get my health in order. But that's something I can't really change, I keep trying new things as they become available in the hopes I can turn the tide of the auto immune war my body is waging on itself.

The biggest thing I'm hoping to change is being able to interact with all of you people. To finally have friends I can talk to about this messy journey and won't judge me for it. People who get me.