Day 8 (since I decided to begin working towards my complete m2F transition)

Morning Kittens,

I'm trying to be good with keeping my face out of the frames but Only using my phone to film can be daunting. Plus, without the bra and being tucked, I can be a tall thin hung man, but that not how I feel. I feel like a 30 something woman who has a work in progress body. I think like a 30 something woman, and I for the modest parts of my day, dress like a 30 something woman(yoga pants, tucked in panties, and a tank top and training bra under my hoodie). But I don't like my head......I know that sounds strange to not say face, but I mean head+neck+spine lol.

I'm losing hair so I always wear a hat. I have a neck like a giraffe, and not in the cute or sexy way. And this is because of the curve in my spine.

But this all comes down to the title and subject matter.
I realize that this is a wet and messy forum, however my life has been interlaced with WAM and gender identity as far back as I can remember.

And so thus, on Tuesday, June 16, 2019 at the age of 36 I have decided to work towards beginning my transition to become the woman I am meant to look and truly feel completely myself as.

Yay! *giggle* I have been fighting having this conversation with myself for over a decade and now due to recent event at a local nude beach, and from all the love and support that I have received thru my friends here on UMD, I have finally had this discussion internally and the decision has been made.

I've got chills and goosebumps and yet I've a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I sit and stand a bit taller. Which isn't always a good thing(giraffe neck lol) but I'm sure once I get the right hormones and direction, then life will be so much more simpler.

I write that and laugh, because I know the repercussions of the journey I'm about to endeavour on:

1.) Divorce
2.) Disowned -From everyone I know and love, as they are all devoutly religious and if they all knew who I truly am, I'd be expelled from the ranks post haste.
3.) Constantly looking over my shoulder for someone connected to my (extremely well connected)criminal brother-in-law. I have been warned and threatened already, so it's inevitable for that to appear eventually, but I'm hoping for that to be at a point in time where I don't look like I do now, so pictures from now won't do any good. Let's hope.

And the struggles I now face:
1.) Finances - I have none. I'm currently unemployed and looking for work. So if you live in Canada(I'll get to why only Canada in a minute), and have a spare room and a job position open I'll move in a heartbeat. No questions asked. Please let me know. I am mechanically inclined and have experience in many fields
2.) Transportation - I was forced to sell my car to move to our current residence, and the minute I leave, my current vehicle (her car), ceases to exist and I am walking.
3.) A Home - once I start to transition and the hormones begin to show signs of this, "the jig is up" and I'm out on my ass. So I'm hoping to find a home and a job in the same location in one shot. I'd even move to your home to be a naughty live-in maid to cook and clean for you. But that's for private message *giggle*
4.) Identity - name to be changed but Not in a local town. Do it on the move.

So yes, an hour to get in all out and down. But now it out. And the fun begins.

PM me if you have any suggestions or opportunities.