Just when you think you never stand a chance of meeting someone who totally gets you, BAM it happens! It's happened for me and I couldn't be more thrilled. I've met a wonderful guy who is not exactly into my messy world, YET... I say yet, because although he has never tried my particular lifestyle, he has a lot of experience with another similar lifestyle and we have found that we can meld both lifestyles in a way that pleases us both. He has director's experience and is quite well known in his circle for producing the best videos. He and I will be working together from now on so my videos will be done professionally. I am going to teach him all about what I do and I hope he enjoys it, too. It's just so awesome that he is so into it. I had given up on ever finding someone to share with, let alone finding a man who is not only familiar with this, but is so excited about learning more, what it's all about. He is really anxious to do our first shoot, as am I! I mean, I will finally get the opportunity to have pro videos, great still shots for the gallery, and best of all, sharing with someone who is crazy for me, both of us enjoying this together. He has watched a few of my videos and thinks I'm hot. That's a pretty incredible feeling! I definitely don't feel alone anymore. I am having some trouble being able to run my own site, I don't know what to do. I am very much looking forward to having a man who is honest,open, aware and affectionate. The icing on the cake is that I have a friend, a comrade, if you will. Someone I can, finally, share all these things with, his and mine. No secret lives, no lies, and no hurt. I've taken a lot of hurt I didn't deserve and for the first time, have a chance to have the kind of relationship I've always wanted. I am awaiting a message from messmaster and hope I am able to take control of my own site. I want to post pics, the old and new videos myself. Regardless of whether I will be permitted to post without the help of my ex, my man and I will be participating in messy playing and other playing. We will be video taping and having a super awesome time! I'm so lit right now I'm shining brighter than Vegas! Praying to the WebMaster for help!

Take care all and wish me luck!