A few people have asked me how I got into wam so I thought I'd share my little story.

One of my early memories was hosting a circus in the garden where I made my poor friend dress up as a clown. We must have been about 7 or 8 and I managed to convince her that a clown would need to get a pie in the face to make it realistic. We assembled an audience of other kids who showed limited interest in being there, and acted out the scene. I secretly wanted to play the role of the clown but at that point, the idea of being humiliated, even in front of our neighbours, made me feel excited but too embarrassed. My friend on the other hand didn't seem to care.

We played some circus music and did a little juggling scene and then I dished out the pies, I can't remember how we made them but they were yellow - one to my clown friend and one to her brother. They tried to pie me back but I covered my face and ran away, not wanting to make it obvious that I really wanted it to happen.

My other favourite game as a kid was playing make up salon gone wrong. I would sit in the salon chair and get my friend to give me a bad makeover - I would ask for oversized lips and to end up looking as ridiculous as possible. At the end she would show me my face in the mirror and I would act horrified- then I would take my revenge, making her look even sillier.

Around the same time the tv we all love (at least in the UK) was everywhere. Like many 90s wam fans, I remember watching especially women face the gunge tank on Noel's house party and feeling a strange sensation that I couldn't quite identify at the time. He used to put people in this little rollercoaster where they would get gunged and sprayed with foam - I used to think to myself what if I ended up on the show - I would die of shame.

Pies were always the thing that I really fantasised about though. I used to gather together bubbles from my bath and shove them into my face, but that never scratched the itch. That's when I first saw an American show where other kids would sit in a chair and be hit with mechanically delivered pies (please remember I was a kid myself at the time - maybe ten years old by this point so in my mind fine to enjoy seeing other kids pied)!

The thought of sitting in that chair being humiliated, or worse / better being sent down into a pool of pie to be completely covered head to toe, with a studio audience - and being on tv - just made me feel a sort of horror mixed with fascination that laid the foundations of the fetish that I have today.

The internet was a game changer. I found that I could easily see clips of women being pied and gunged. My favourites were when this was completely unexpected- either on a game show, or morning kids tv - a bit of a later one but holly Willoughby in a French maid outfit getting baked goods shoved in her face - what a treat.

I found a couple of clips that I loved, of women being locked in the stocks and pied in some sort of tv chat show as revenge for stealing someone's man. The utter humiliation of being subjected to such punishment on tv for millions to see made me wonder how I could go about finding myself in that predicament.

The reason I only like to see women in these scenarios made me question my sexuality. Did I want to pie these women and have sex with them? No. Maybe? But seeing a woman in these situations let me imagine it was me. Once the pie or gunge rendered the woman unrecognisable I could easily pretend that I was the subject of the humiliating ordeal.

And what about the clown thing? I have always been blonde, petite, into feminine clothes and looking girly. For me, taking this away and replacing it with something that is masculine, comical or unattractive is where the humiliation comes in. I have often fantasised about having my head forcibly shaved, being put in a fat suit or made to dress in a silly Halloween costume and have people laugh at me.

The clown costume for me is the perfect combination, silly and ideally not at all sexy.

Clowns are designed to be laughed at and humiliated. The idea of putting my long blonde hair into a short silly clown wig, wearing ridiculous make up so that you can barely tell who I am, and then covering any element of sexiness with a big pair of hooped clown trousers and shirt with a brightly coloured bow tie for the sole purpose of being laughed at, the audience cheering to pie me, the clown, in the face is about as embarrassing as it gets.

One of my favourite game show clips (from the show 'I bet you will') involves an American tourist being given the task of being turned into a clown for $500. She agrees to the dare and they sit her down and start her clown makeover. They shave the middle of her hair and dye the sides red, to give the classic bozo look. She is then put into a clown suit and shoes and the gathered crowd take turns to pie her in the face. At the end they show the before and after - the after being a picture of complete humiliation.

I finally decided in 2018 it was time to make the fantasy a reality. I found a new friend online who was into wam and had a gunge pool. We shot my first ever pie scene in my flat. I sat on a little chair, my hands tied behind my back, in stockings, suspenders and red lacy underwear. I was embarrassed enough by sharing my wam fetish and thought it was a bridge too far to go full clown.

I was surround by real whipped cream pies and various food stuffs. As the first pie hit me I felt like I was finally releasing years of pent up arousal. He wiped my eyes and I sat there, feeling ashamed and turned on. He gave me my first pie sandwich- I felt ridiculous as the cream clung to my nose, unable to wipe it away because my hands were bound behind my back.

I received my first dumping of custard over my head followed by a pie hat, which he left there to humiliate me all the more. After being made to sit on a pie, and being relentlessly pied and gunged for half an hour I was released, covered head to toe and unrecognisable at this point, my stockings heavy with the combined mess that had turned into slop.

That little scene was private but I kept the video and watched it back many a time.

UMD was a constant source of entertainment for me in the interim years. I was in a vanilla relationship and didn't really want to explore wam for fear mainly that my partner would think I was a weirdo. So I watched videos and looked at pictures wondering how those models ended up getting into those scenes and wondering if I could ever be brave enough to put my kink out into the world.

Fast forward to now. A few weeks ago I was planning a little self pie session and I thought, what would be the worst that could happen if I filmed this clip and shared it? I tentatively put some clown make up on and filled a flan case with whipped cream. I shoved it in my face, stopped recording and uploaded it.

The clip went down better that I expected, people liked it, literally the like button was pressed! I went with a middle of the road sexy clown look which maybe helped. I loved having an audience of like minded people who enjoyed seeing me pied as much as I enjoyed the feeling myself.

If you've followed my clips on here I have since dabbled in full clowning / slapstick (which is my favourite but quite niche) and a more sexy / lingerie based approach. I like both - being gunged in a sexy outfit is an amazing feeling.

I recently did a live session with quiz questions and forfeits. Having strangers online demand to see me pied and gunged was something I'd fantasised about for a while. Facing the gunge tank for the first time and taking three amazing gungings in front of an audience took things to a whole new level - i absolutely loved it!

One other thing I get asked is whether I enjoy wamming other people, particularly men. The answer is yes, it turns me on to see others enjoying the experience the way I do. Would I enjoy pieing and gunging another girl? I've never really tried it but I imagine so!

Finally for me, making clips is fun and addictive - I love the feedback. I don't really want to show my naked face so the idea of doing produced shoots doesn't really appeal to me and I'm happy in this community. My content isn't sexually explicit because I'd find that awkward to do on camera. Being pied in lingerie and sharing my repressed fetish is intimate enough for me.

Selling clips helps me cover the cost of the gunge, pies and outfits which gets expensive as you will all know! I'm still interested in finding wam partners (and big thanks to the people I've met so far) but I work a lot (in a proper job!) and have struggled to find the time so if you've messaged and I haven't replied yet it's nothing personal!

And last but not least I just wanted to say a massive thank you for liking my pics and videos - sending messages of support and for the many virtual wams! it's been amazing to be pic of the day more than once and to feel accepted for something that's always felt like a thing to be ashamed of x

Sharing some pics of my first pie and pie sandwich along with my varying clown personalities!

Let me know if you can relate!

Alice x