Perfect, a blog is perfect for someone like me who leads such a double-life (crossdressed vs. "male mode"). Not that the WAM is an integral part of it, I love CDing in general and can do it without the impulse for sexual arousal, it's just really fun to WAM when I can. Becoming the girls in my imagination, seeing how it feels to fill a pair of panties, etc. all fun and awesome things to do.

It's actually still within 2 or 3 years I discovered this side of me. CDing itself was discovered when I was 20, and enjoying WAMing myself dressed at 22. I had just come back home from college, and had a spare can of pie filling some bum randomnly gave me that I was just going to trash. Rather than waste it though, I put it to some use...on my ass.

I headed into the shower, and donned some pink silk high-waist panties for what would be my first CD WAM experience yet-the very same pair attached below. In the background the can I used be seen, and out the left of the panties them hangs some Twizzlers, and beneath them (unvisible) are a few cookies. I stuffed them in there earlier out of my curiosity, which gave me the motive to go into the shower and have at it.

Anywho, I grabbed the one pound can-and tipped the whole thing right down the back. The feeling fascinated me, not to mention how it "moved." I had experimented with WAM as a preteen, but only in my male clothing-I was fascinated by the feeling of filled panties, the way the mess just slides right beneath the butt cheeks. I left it in there awhile and the pie filling melted, causing a "gunging within a gunging" of sorts.

When all was said and done I felt slightly "guilty" and strange about this, but alas-I had discovered my CD WAM side.

Funny, to this day wamming in male clothing still doesn't appeal to me (though I suppose I'd oblige a girlfriend's wish or something if she were into it) and it never really has. I've tried filling boxers to no effect, the cut, material, looseness and quick escape just does nothing for me.

But ah, female TV WAM I love it to death. My journey began, and cups of pudding, donuts, soup, and more were on the way in my road of, "Wonder how this feels?"