So I've had a decent week. A few surprises along the way, like my SO asking to "take a picture of my ear, because hers was inside charging" while we were outside smoking weed.

I responded with "You don't need a picture of my ear......". Well shit hit the fan!
"Why don't you want me to look at your phone? Is there something bad* on it? If you are hiding something from me and I find out later that you lied to me, we're finished! Just let me see your phone, please. You probably have a girlfriend during the day, don't you? She's probably in our bed and shower. "
I said she didn't need to see my phone if she trusted me after 10 years of marriage, to not cheat on her or to do something that would jeopardize her life.

This continued for 2 hours. Then into the next day. And the next and the next.

I finally said, "you know what and who I am, so please stop treating me like a diseased leper." (Had to use a biblical term. Seemed to get to point across better than saying like a piece of trash lol) I told her that if she didn't want to have anything to do with that part of my life then don't go asking to snoop through my phone to find what we both already know is there. I'm not with anyone else in our home or in my heart.

That stop her. I can say I love you until I'm blue in the face and she refuses to trust or believe me, but the minute that I talk about my heart..........putty in the hand lol.

So all is okay now lol, as much as can be in a marriage where the open tg mate is emotionally and mentally berated daily, and there is no trust or love from the mate.

Sitting on my 2nd floor apartment balcony, just outside of Edmonton, Alberta..wearing my bra, a small but loose navy T-shirt, purple silky panties, and ivory lace high rise booty shorts, wrapped in a reversible pink/leopard print housecoat. It is currently 8:00am, I've been awake since 4:30am. It is 10 degrees Celsius but feels like 5, no sun, dark gloomy clouds, a constant cold breeze that chills to the bone. Smoking some Mary J, then off to the warm bath I ran earlier in just my bra, panties and an old baggy sleep shirt (custom request).

If it warms up a bit by 11, I'll head to the river for a bit.


*Bad refers to anything a Jehovah's Witness shouldn't do......be no part of the world.....we were both raised as such and she pretends to be holier than thou...a lot! I still know the difference between right and wrong I just chose to not be so stringent on my day to day.