I was chatting with a Facebook friend this evening and I mentioned about my bodypaint obsession. This friend had known me for a few years as someone who loves to be coated in paint and has a sexual attraction to being coated in paint. I mentioned to him that during my many bodypaint sessions, I would go out to the hallway and elevator lobby on my floor completely naked but coated in paint all over my body, and jerk off in front of the mirror. I would film myself doing such devious things, and told him that I get a thrill of being so bad. Because I live in an apartment building, there are definite chances of someone opening the door and discover me. That was a thrill all in itself.

However, instead of him being excited and hard when I told him my experiences, he asked why do I do it and it seemed strange to him. He said that it was such an odd thing for anyone to do. On the one hand he said it was strange but on the other hand he was worried that someone would discover me.

I felt for the first time a little embarrassed and maybe I told him too much for my own good. I said to him the idea of being exposed outside of my private home and potentially being humiliated was to me fun. Risky like hell, but fun. Well that didn't go so well either, as he continued to say it was a strange thing to partake in. After that, I decided to end the conversation and closed the chat. I couldn't go on further. I didn't need him or anyone to confirm my lurid hobby, but he instead judged me for what I loved to do.

The idea of humiliation and exposing myself as a fetish has only been explored recently. I have become more comfortable showing the erotic side of bodypainting. I suppose when you love WAM and post photos of yourself online, whether it be on UMD or Facebook, it is inherent you are an exhibitionist. The fact I love the attention by others and seeking the attention and actually getting it by seeing the number of views goes up is a bit of an exhilaration and addiction to me.

I didn't have this exhilaration in me until just a few months ago when strangers would love the photos of me coated in paint, and they would get hard and horny just seeing it. Now I am certainly not the only one who have posted photos of themselves engaging in acts of masturbation in front of the camera. My obsession with bodypaint has been a very private matter, but now, it seems my exposure give me a high. In the past I would never fathom telling anyone about bodypainting, but here I am today posting photos of me completely coated in layers upon layers of paint.

So why was there a negative reaction from this friend? Probably because he didn't want me arrested from public indecency, which made sense. But I had expected a more positive reaction from him where despite the risk, the idea sounds so hot. He didn't. Will this stop me from posting more? Definitely not. Will it stop me from being a bit risky and walk around naked and painted around my building? Nope. In fact, it makes me want more.