I hate how i feel sometimes..I feel so low and confused its unreal! I am 19 years old and here is my story... I suffer from depression and anxiety, I have been own my own since i was 16 years old. My dad has nothing to do with me because i am "satans child". He always wanted a boy so when i was born i was a girl and he was upset. Therefore i call him by his name ever since I started talking because he would always bring me down. He was the first person to call me a four eyed freak when I got my glasses and the only one as well. My mom and him seperated and she was desperate for a man so she dated a guy from afganistan he turned out to be a fraud. Later on She married a guy and everything was fine and dandy. I was happy and living life i was 14 years old at the time and I was in a relationship. Later on through the next year I was 15 then, my mom and her new man broke up because she found better. My mom kicked me and my aunt out, he hates my family. He also made her get rid of her dog because he hated him too. I started a job working fast food and I got my own place my current boyfriend from when I was 14 started beating me and etc. I left him at the age of 18. I had nowhere to go after 3 years wasted on somebody who changed when I turn 18 was unreal. I had nobody..I was alone..I moved states because he stalked me... Now my mom wants back in my life and it hurts because all she is going to do is hurt me for the 3rd time. I just feel so helpless...