From the time I can remember, I always had this thing about food. As I got older I started thinking about it more and in a different way. Food became sensual, watching someone eat was sexy. Then I started having thoughts about food with sex although I'd never yet done it, All my friends knew and would tease me about it. Like "Hey, you want to eat pineapple and whipped cream off him" laughing all the while. It stayed a private thought in my head, fantasies unfulfilled through my life. Then I found out all about getting messy and it was so much fun. Too bad it was with a liar who spent many years dragging me along, for no reason but fun head games. Sad. Though he showed me what he wanted and I always complied, he was playing with my emotions. Yes, I'm human and I have them. I stopped getting messy for a long time because this person ruined it for me. I love getting messy and playing with sweet food. Although I'd rather be sharing it with another, I enjoy myself immensely even alone. And I've been single for so long, too long... Had I been treated like a person and respected for time served and been told the truth, I wouldn't be single. I'm not sure what his deal with me was but he just about ruined everything. Took everything, then just dropped me cold. He put a very bad taste in my mouth about being messy, getting messy, enjoying what I enjoy to do. I am a true fan of getting messy and I enjoy it. I'm real, not a model being paid. This is something I could have done for free had I been given the same respect as a stranger would get. I do have a problem separating the messy from a sexual experience. I know this and am working hard on it. I have yet to meet anyone who's like me here or anywhere, for that matter. I love the amatuer videos because I thought getting messy for real would be more appealing than someone doing it for the pay. I've been getting messy about twice a week and now take pics and videos. I won't be posting any more because I've learned most of you want the set up shots, all models, produced with good lighting. That to me seems to take away from the whole messy scene. I'd certainly rather see a video or pic that's made by a real person. That's sexier to me than seeing a produced one. I thought I would find some people like me but I see there are very few. This is something I don't want to lose, just because I'm a real person who loves it, and not some model who doesn't feel those feelings or think those thoughts but does it for the pay and shit. I personally would rather have real wammers than some fake girls I know of. I'm really confused if this is the right site for me.... a real wammer, but amatuer. I love the community but don't think I'm good enough to be anything more than a profile. Really sad about this...